Family Comes First

One thing to be thankful in my life is the fact that I have a complete family on my side. They're not really in very good and healthy conditions. Each of them have suffered an illness, but it is common as people get older, disease show and impacts life thoroughly. The illness symptoms seems bad but they have good spirits to overcome it. Yeah that's what I'm so proud of my parents.

I do really love them, my parents and my little brother. My brother is a unique person, to the point that he often make us annoyed. Haha. His blood is AB type, is that why he has different point of view compared to people in general? Hahaha. Just like my parents, he struggled for his life. Having him on our side made me realize that a person can be so naive to the point that we need communal love to strengthen each other. Accepting and forgiving are parts of the communal life itself.

As a family, we aren't always be in harmony. Sometimes we argue for our opinions, but in the end we accept the difference and try to tolerate others. My father shows the real affection of father's love. Family comes first than himself. I used to think that he contributes so much to form my perspective of what ideal family should be. And I'm so thankful for it! 

I am a Christian. I've known Christian values in my whole life, but to be honest I'm not a good example of how Christian should live. I have so much dark side and I don't prioritize God's will even I have reached my age now. But God always have His way to draw me near. One thing I learn in life that when we're being in dark, we only can see darkness, but when we're being in light, we can see things clearly. 

One day I accidentally saw it. A thing that change my perspectives of my dearest one. The one that I used to trust wholeheartedly betrayed us. When I first read the wild conversations, I felt like being bombed at a moment. Is it true? Are my eyes deceiving me? All emotions mixed as one. And I can't hold it any longer. I have confirmed it to the person, but I got only denial. What? Shame on you. Why are you doing this to us? Why you stabbed me on my back? These questions still linger on my head till now. 

It was so hurt to face the situation at that moment. We argued a lot. And then I realized, as human I can't change people. If they choose to do so, who am I to change their preference? I can't do so much, so by then I prefer loosing all the depression. By letting it go, we reconciles and peace back at us. But honestly, my trust has faded too. Till this moment, our family still have the issue. But as hurted ones, we prepare some strategies to prevent more bad impacts in future.

As a human we have needs. We wanna be appreciated. We search for so much fun. But that fun is no longer fun when it actually kills our people's feeling. Besides, doing that shows how we take them for granted. It's the lesson I got from our family circumstance.